I started journaling during my quiet times in college, and I kind of got off of it once Lucas was born, but for the past few months I have started back and am realizing how great it is for me. It really helps me to get all of my emotions out and really think things through. As well as, keep track of what God is teaching me and doing in my life. Recently, I have realized that my faith is so weak. If I can not see how God will work things out, I start to doubt His will and plan. I start to doubt His promises. I have realized that it is so easy to sing, “all we need is you,” and to say, “do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on,” but it is hard to actually do these things when you can not see how things will turn out and come together. I have realized that it is through actually stepping out and following Christ, when you can not see how it will turn out or how He will provide, that you see how strong your faith is. My agony over these decisions show me how weak my faith is, but God is so good. When my faith is so weak, He shows me over and over again how He has always provided for and taken care of His people, all I have to do is open the Bible. Then I come across Matthew 6:33 “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” There it is, the answer, the key. Follow God, seek His kingdom and His righteousness and do not worry about tomorrow. Please pray for us as we follow Christ and make a very hard decision.

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